Wednesday, October 14, 2009

long time, no see

hello : ) just stopping by for a visit.
I really do love tumblr. it's SO easy and pretty organized.

gooooooooz night! It's 12:30 and I'm up for no apparent reason. I did not have any homework whatsoever. LAME.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

I've moved on.

tumblr's less frustrating.
i can upload photos a lot quicker.

aw fuck, i think i'll blog on both. hehe I can't bear to part with blogger.

---- decided that blogger will be my public diary. and tumblr will just be... tumblr. VISIT BOTH!

OMG WHAT AM I DOING. IT'S 9:45 AND I STILL NEED TO DO PHYSICS. i hate the internado.

it was silent as a butterfly

Hello, October. Hello college apps. Terrified, but excited and anxious. I could almost smell college life. I. Can't. Wait. Yums, sneak peek of the Master's - October 22-24 with Stephanie!!! It'll be a Christian version of ASB camp, LAWLS. I'm sad that I can't be at the homecoming assembly though. Oh welllps. IT'S WORTH IT.

School's slowly picking up. I'm feeling the cram, the pressure, the stress. Maybe it's because college applications are out? Or maybe it's because I wrote my first AP Lit essay today? I know I didn't do well.

You know I've always complained or nagged when someone has "changed". But honestly, who hasn't changed? We act like we've remained the same from day 1, but we're just fooling ourselves. Says the infamous and cliche 6th grade GATE theme: Change is inevitable. People drift apart, people grow closer. People. Change. I've grown accustomed to it. Sure, people change in good ways and in bad ways, but I'm starting a new thing in my life. I shouldn't snub people who changed negatively 'cause sooner or later, I'll probably do the same. It's life. I should stay around, if I care.. I'm sorry. We're not all perfect. I. Too. Have. Changed.

I'm pathetically horrible at keeping in touch with people. If I don't talk to you in a few days, I probably won't for weeks.. I'll probably say hi, make small talk, or whatnot, but sadly I don't make the effort. I'm ashamed of myself, I feel bad. I'm trying to fix it. Give me time!!

-We're so consumed with our own busy lives. I'm sad that we hardly talk or see each other now. Can't wait till Thanksgiving.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

i am bitter,

Saturday, September 26, 2009

they call her my "protege"

welcome back assembly.

The Circus.

one saturday afternoon

Got back from BT with Leakana. I love Peet's. Thanks to Kristine and Tommmmmy for visiting me. Love them!

Finally, this week is over. I've never been so exhausted and tired. Welcome Back assembly was alrights. GO 2010!!!! SEN10RS!!!!!!!!!! I think going balls to the wall when Azcona introduced the seniors was the highlight of the assembly. Sure hope people liked the costumes. Kade did! I was so happy when he told me.

Dance. oh, the dance.. I had fun, I was bored, I was sick, I was annoyed, I was disgusted, I was estatic. I was TIRED. FC boys were such whores. I loved it. So happy Kristine was there. I've missed seeing her. I love Kevin Dao :') HE'S SUCH A SWEETHEART.

I wouldn't say that I was sad* (sorry, not 'happy') to see you, but I would say that I was sad and ashamed to say that I caught myself being fake and/or acting like you didn't exist when you were 2 feet away from me. I just didn't know what to say or do. But if we're "better off as friends" I should act like you're a friend and not an enemy. I'm sorry, but I have to admit, being friends, or TRYING to be friends with you is really hard. I feel like all I could do is say "hi"... and that's it. I mean, it's not the same.

"AW HELL NO. AW HELL NO" hehe. I love Nina and Jerrri.

"Is it just me or are LQ people sluttier than other schools?"
"We're slutty. We dance slutty, we dress slutty."
HAHAHAHHA..... actually, I'm embarrassed..

Monday, September 21, 2009


I'm really in a talkative mode and I really don't know why. It keeps my mind busy and I like being busy.

So my mom's friend "hired" me to do her family portraits. I'm getting paid. Weird, right? I sincerely thank my mom for being the best "MOMAGER" ever!!! Thanks for bragging about me, even though I'm really not that great... hehe. Can't wait to use my uncle's SLR camera. and I really hope to do well. Cross your fingers for me. Pointers/tips/advice, please. If I do well, my mom promised me my own SLR camera for my 18th. She was so quick to say yes, too. I shall not let her down!!! NEVER. Photography is the one hobby I did not let go of such as piano, violin, or karate. Honestly, I don't even deserve this opprotunity. I'm pure amateur. I'm nervous, I don't know much. But, I'll try to learn in a short amount of time.

Three... no four people asked me today. Bad timing, no?