Oh,

MOTHER OF PEARL!
I did the shadiest thing in the world! I feel horrible : ( When you told me you were going to ask him to formal, it did not process in my brain till yesterday!! I FEEL SO INCONSIDERATE! = ( donttttt even worry about it, 'cause I won't ask him! you go for it! I'm so sorry!


P's birthday was okay : ) I was so full after 2 damn slices. Man, all I was thinking about was my precious $16 bucks... Oh well. It was his night so it's kaaay. Highlights: a highly embarrassing pizookie accident : ) (amy!) , my "date" with hao, another highly embarrassing accident (but with water this time ahem-hao-ahem), and I can't remember any other "happenings".

so, kristine might not be able to come down for formal = ( I only wanted to go because she was supposed to! Siigh, it's 'kay. we shall save up for prom. Kristine! I miss ya! I NEED YOU TO COME DOWN TO SAVE ME FROM A CERTAIN PERSON. I know that if you're here, you wouldn't let me hang out with that person. (I swears, we need a code name)

you're annoying to me. I can't handle you anymore!
you're obsessed. chilllll a bit, yeah?
can't you tell?

On the fence

To formal or not to formal? That is the question. I really like this year's theme: Vanity Fair. It's extremely creative! : ) I know whom I want to ask, but he's like "private property" if you know what I mean. I can't step on his premises. Rofl, so I have to ask for a ...sort of .. permission? ahah! I respect her way too much. I mean, she's like one of my closest friends. I hope she'll be okay with it. She better be honest with me. & I think I know how to ask him! hahah! Soooo, I want to enter the Sweethearts contest, but knowing Brian K's creativeness I might lose. haha, it's okay. I'll just do it anywayssss. Man, if Kristine's coming down, I HAVE to go. Like, there's absolutely no other option, but to go.

I'm on the fence about you. We had a past and I'll always care for you, but do I really want to go back to how I felt before? It was always you. Literally. It's not a bad thing, but honestly, I don't know. I want to move on to other guys just as you did with other girls. You're pretty confusing. I remember what I told you before, before we stopped talking. I said that everytime I start talking to you, I start liking you again. Is it possible that it's beginning to happen?

& you. I really like how you're pretty darn smart! It's a turn-on : ) Just like Brian said, you have this "aura" that motivates me to work harder in school. ROFL Just kiddding, of courseee.

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So Phillip's birthday + his mailto:dinner@BJ tomorrow : ) Happy early!

hey, your wife wished you a happy birthday, too : )

Rants and rambles

There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe.
Well baby, I'm a put-on-a-show kinda girl
Don't like the backseat, gotta be first.
- Circus, by Britney Spears

Today was a really good day. hahah, I just felt so happy today! Even my HORRIBLE lab grade did not phase me. the first 3 periods went by so slow, but the last three went by like a breeze. So Brian christened me with the nickname : Cleavage Master 3000. yeah, thanks man! I appreciate it : (

How funny. I never thought that would you think the same. oth :')

I will never be a homewrecker. I respect you way too much. I'm sorry you feel that way towards me, though.. I don't know what to do because I don't think I did anything wrong?

A part of me still beLieves when you, say you're gonna stick around
A part of me still believes we can, find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try so let's just, say goodbye
I don't wanna dream about, all the things that never were
And maybe I can Live without, when I'm out from under
And I don't wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out, when I'm out from under. -BSpears.

Finally,

I finally watched Twilight. It was okay. Honestly, I think I liked it because of Robert Pattinson. He was soo attractive and "brooding"! Unfortunately, his voice was horrific; he sounded like a chinese fob =/ the producers/director should of had him keep his British accent. it would be of been 100x sexier! I'm in love with his bedroom/lazy eyes. Very captivating! Man, I've liked him eversince he was Cedric Diggory in HP4, but no one seemed to agree. WHATEVER. =) At first I thought Kristin Stewart was too plain for Bella, but actually, she's really pretty! simple, but pretty. :) I really like her as an actress. Anyways, I've decided to finish the book and continue on with the series. Yes, I've joined the bandwagon..

So last night was incredibly hard for me :'( KQ went to go see the jonas brothers @ MGM. Oh how I wish I was there. Good thing, Steph was there to comfort me.. however when she realized that Kristine got in for free, she was sad, as well. Hardest night of my life!!! I swear, I will go see them. It's a self-promise. ROFL. Man, I think i can be so juvenile at times.

btw! Nip/Tuck's coming back! :)

NOTE TO SELF:
you have 20+ hours worth of TV you need to catch up on.

Because

This weekend has been such a blast. Steph and I haven't had kesomakang time in FOREVER. so this weekend has brought back summer for us. i'm thankful that she's here. rofl

so black friday was a bust. i just bought 5 vnecks from pacsun. what I wanted = a leather jacket, boots, cardigans. =/ oh well I least i saved up! The sales were depressing but i went really late. like 1pm-ish rofl that probably explains why. bummmmer

so today: michael's and Twilight.

I'm extremely happy that Britney's back. I dont care that she aged. I still love her. Besides, it's natural; that's what pregnancy does to you!

one of my life goals is to go to one of her concerts :')

KesomaKang once again

SLEEPOVERRRRRR!
we haven't had one in foreverrrr
so fun, so fun ROFL.

some "photo ops" (in my backyard... and in my bathroom) :


Backyard Hooligans:

We couldn't resist:

Of course, it's all fake.

a cult

I'm not fond of Twilight, but I'm quite fond of Rob Patz.










He is a beautiful man with this indescribable rugged-ness that I find incredibly irresistible.