I will.

I finally did something in the "working out" zone. We went hiking at Sierra Madre. It wasn't intense until I started running uphill... I'm so out of shape, dude. Anyways, it was beautiful! Took some pics vv.

I have a new 09 goal: I'm going to write a children's book and hopefully have it published by the summer. I know, super ambitious goal, right? So far, I have two stories in mind and one story in the midst of the writing process. Well, hopefully I could make it. I love writing. Hm, I think it's possible with the help of Susie and Kana. They're going to help me with the publishing process. Honestly, I don't know what's going to come out of it. If nothing happens, that's okay. I'm excited for the whole publishing stage. Kana said that I need an agent so she's going to help me look for one... after I finish. Yikes! Wish me luck =)

So, I'm watching The City. I really like it! I've always wanted to live in the Meat Packing District. The Gaslamp Quarters is very reminiscent of it. + Whitney's style is amazing.

MUST SEE^

Let Me Sign

Broken she
Has her arms twisted
Is pointing at me
I'll stand, but I ain't coming
Over as she
She spoke with a voice
That struck at the sky
She said, "come on over
Bittersweet I'll wrap you in my arms"
And she said,
"Let me sign"
"Let me sign"

Boy, he's a good singer.

The Wackness

I think I miss you.
The more I pull out, the more I want in.





Why am I so contradicting?



just as how I hate the color red,


but want a red mini cooper.


you should know.

Gluttony

Eversince Monday, I've been eating such unhealthy things: chips, ice cream, cup o' noodles (I EVEN TRIED THE CHEDDER CHEESE FLAVORED ONE...), chocolate bars, cookies, pasta, etc. I ate a Hershey Cookies and Milk bar at 1:30 am this morning! Steph was here since Sunday and we just pigged out to celebrate winter break, but I think we should stop before we go back to school with 10 lbs in our butts and thighs. Yesterday at 3pm, we fell into a food coma and slept for 2 hours. How unhealthy is that? So we went walking at 5 around my neighborhood and tried looking for cute boys, but I don't think they were home... either that or I live in a complex with old people. So, Get Smart is one funny flick. I recommend it to all. I love Steve Carrell and Anne Hathaway!!

So I have to get started with my Christmas gifts; I'm so behind.

I love Kristine and Stephanie T. :)

Do you ever get the feeling that you sincerely want to move on but you're stuck in this tar pit? Why is that? I wonder if I honestly want to move on or if I'm just telling myself to do so.

Breathe easy

I've noticed that our lives and our society are extremely fast paced. It seems to me that we need more and we're just rushing to get to the next level. For what, though? What's the sole purpose that drives us to do so? Is it self-glorification, self-satisfaction? The competition? The selfishness that keeps you at the top? It doesn't seem like people are content with what they currently have. Just as quickly as something new comes out, it fades away, like many other fads. We need more. We need that new job promotion, that salary raise, that new gadget. When it's all said and done, nothing is going to matter anymore. Honestly, I think we should just stop and stand still. No more rushing to that next appointment, no more cramming in unnecessary things.

The holidays are going by way too quickly. Christmas is on Thursday and it doesn't feel like it. It's so rushed; I just need to breathe and cherish this moment. Why is it that summer seems like forever but winter's just a small fragment of our year? Christmas has become so commercialized, it lost its true meaning. I've caught myself caring about what to buy for people for presents' sake, not because I actually care about them or what's worst is that I care about what I want more than other people's needs. I thank God that I have my family though. They keep me sane in the midst of all this chaos.

Plans

So for my birthday:
karaoke + BYOFood : )

Well, hopefully. I didn't talk to my mom about it yet.
+ the time and date is TBA 'cause I don't know when Kristine's coming down.


What I REALLY REALLY want though is a photobooth at my party.
but it's too expensive. http://www.rentphotobooths.com/pricing.html

I'm afraid my party's going to be clique-y, thoughhhh. It's 'kay.
If you're not going to have fun, be my guest.

+ steph's going to come!!

Current obsessions:

1) Mel Kadel

2) Peaches and Pixie Geldof

3) Embroidery floss
4) Sperry Topsiders

5) Will Ferrel

I'm fucking tired. I just finished watching The House Bunny. Weak plot, but super cute.

**Excited for :

Gravity can bend the time

My mom is extremely contradicting. She hates buying things for people and excuses it by saying "We have no money!" in her thick Cambo accent. But when we go shoppping, she would buy things for herself and me. She doesn't give me an allowance so I can't buy gifts on my own. Why can't we just spend a little on other people, you know?


Anyways, I love Loehmanns! They have the best designers for soooo cheap. I got a leather jacket for $30 from $130. gaaah and a french connection cardi for $14! Sorry, deals make me excited.


I care for you, I do. But not to the point where I like you. Do you know what I mean?

The All Star Lights are really cute.

My new obsession: LMFAO, the band<3

WINTER BREAK 08

Yes, it's finally winter break. I think I've waited for this day since the first day of school. Thanks Amy for the JB book! Hm, winter assembly was okay. And I asked him :') THE MOST NERVEWRACKING THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN ALL OF MY 16-ALMOST17-YEARS! I wish he was more enthusiastic about things though. G'daaaaaamnnn it's okay. I'm happy.

So now all I need: a dress, shoes, hair/makeup ideas, MONEY (cause I don't want him to pay)

Balboa was alright. I watched "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" @ the Old Globe. Man! today's all Dr. Suess'ed outttttttt.

Man, I really like Demi's voice! I think she's prettty talented.



the best pop culture show in the world.

Craze

I don't know what to do!

I've heard many stories, but I'm still scared!

Got me goin' stupid,

picking daffodils.

Last week and so far, so good.

Monday; skipped 1st period because I was really late. It was raining soo freaking hard. I felt like I was at freaking Soak City, dude. It was Andrew & Lilian's 17th so we went out for pho afterschoool. theeeeennn tastea and rofl the coffeee shop was certainly a highlight. & hm, tag/hide 'n seek (or hide 'n go seek, idk) @ target with Phillip, A, and L was a blast, gotta admit. Psh to Andrew and Phillip who scoffed at me in the car when I told them that I've always wanted to play h.'n.s at target.

Today; DID NOT RAIN, THANK GOODNESS. Lab test. I think I did fairly well. : ) then heavens, phillips house, & west mall for our mini photoshoot. i swear, I hope I got some good shots..

Crocodile tears.

So this Christmas is going to be a tough one on us, economically speaking. This is the first year we're not giving much presents. Maybe one per person? but, no worries, I will get some things for my close friends. : ) So I realized that this Friday is Amy's pre-Christmas thing.... but my family planned to go to Balboa that weekend. so idk if I could make it! : ( Is there any chance of.. rescheduling? = ( I'm soooo sorry!

so I watched Wanted last night. Thank goodness for blu ray. <3 anyways, it was amazing. I really liked it! Kind of disturbingly grotesque though. It's okay : ) James McAvoy's really cute. Unfortunately, my ideal grandfather, Morgan Freeman, was the bad guy and I hated his character! One more week. Just one more. It's okay, I'll make it. I bet you it's going to be one hard fucking week. I could just smell the many tests and quizzes.

I want to sympathize for you, but I really, honestly can't.

I was surprisingly really bummed out over that. i just want to rub it in your face that he doesnt really want to go with you.. but I won't.

K, honestly guys.. I don't really like it when you ask about what I blog about. lol, i know I make things unclear, but I could understand it. But, KQ, you could ask me.. cause you always do anyways : )

I can't believe

it's 3AM and I'm watching Jett Jackson: The Movie on disney channel

do you know how epic this is?! it's freaking bringing back memories for me :')


I'll pull an all nighter just for this.


PS: the dark knight was incredible. blu-ray made it loads better.

Pellegrino and raspberry syrup

I desperately want to go to AZ over the break. It's been a tradition of mine since I was 2, but eversince my uncle died in 2002, I haven't been able to bring myself to go. But I miss its emptiness, its peacefulness, the cacti, and the smell of dry, cracked red earth. I miss seeing those homes with rocks as their lawn and those infamous tacky lawn ornaments. I miss those stares white people give me as I walk around. Hey, it's not my fault that I'm Asian and their fashion is so two years ago. : ) I also miss the empty malls and Costcos; something incredibly rare in Cali. But I especially miss my aunt's old home. Everytime I smell Ralph Lauren's Safari, I think of her home, my only oasis in AZ's 100degrees+ weather.




Anyways. rofl : )
I'm so bloated. SO BLOATED. I feel like a balloon right now.
Bible study was gooood : ) i led the children's choir with "O Come, O Come Emmanuel". FREAKING AWESOME! they did sooo well! It was so... haunting. <3

Let the claws come out

I'm really tired! my head feels really heavy and i think my sinuses are acting up. plus my throat is extremely sore. I spent the majority of my time working on my descriptive essay, totally neglecting what's due tomorrow and that quest in anatomy... It's hard, but fun, to be artsy fartsy in writing. I loveeee creative writing though : ).


Hm, I have one thing to say:
you're quite the psychotic bitch!
I'm so tempted to provoke you, but I won't >: )
Let the claws come out.

on a lighter note: I am diagnosed with winter-formal-dress-fever! There's this one site with the best, unique dresses! I don't want to say; it's like my secret site. teehee 'causeee my worst fear is going to formal with the same dress as someone else.


I'm infatuated with this dress. ahah!
+ I might make the skirt part a bit pooofier
& i'll make my date a lightning tie, teeheeeeeee

that is, if i get it

I'm wearing

this to wf:

well maybe : )

Christmass

Victoria, after Christmas, you will get yourself 5 of these things:

Mens' cardigans
cardigans with elbow patches
This game here:

A painted room
TMo G1
Saddle shoes
Fyre riding boots
A tiered WF dress + killer shoes to go with it
A WF ticket
or maybe a WF date : )
a new messenger bag

photoshop cs4
Monk seasons 1-6
a Wii, so you could buy that karaoke game

& we'll see

Oh,

MOTHER OF PEARL!
I did the shadiest thing in the world! I feel horrible : ( When you told me you were going to ask him to formal, it did not process in my brain till yesterday!! I FEEL SO INCONSIDERATE! = ( donttttt even worry about it, 'cause I won't ask him! you go for it! I'm so sorry!


P's birthday was okay : ) I was so full after 2 damn slices. Man, all I was thinking about was my precious $16 bucks... Oh well. It was his night so it's kaaay. Highlights: a highly embarrassing pizookie accident : ) (amy!) , my "date" with hao, another highly embarrassing accident (but with water this time ahem-hao-ahem), and I can't remember any other "happenings".

so, kristine might not be able to come down for formal = ( I only wanted to go because she was supposed to! Siigh, it's 'kay. we shall save up for prom. Kristine! I miss ya! I NEED YOU TO COME DOWN TO SAVE ME FROM A CERTAIN PERSON. I know that if you're here, you wouldn't let me hang out with that person. (I swears, we need a code name)

you're annoying to me. I can't handle you anymore!
you're obsessed. chilllll a bit, yeah?
can't you tell?

On the fence

To formal or not to formal? That is the question. I really like this year's theme: Vanity Fair. It's extremely creative! : ) I know whom I want to ask, but he's like "private property" if you know what I mean. I can't step on his premises. Rofl, so I have to ask for a ...sort of .. permission? ahah! I respect her way too much. I mean, she's like one of my closest friends. I hope she'll be okay with it. She better be honest with me. & I think I know how to ask him! hahah! Soooo, I want to enter the Sweethearts contest, but knowing Brian K's creativeness I might lose. haha, it's okay. I'll just do it anywayssss. Man, if Kristine's coming down, I HAVE to go. Like, there's absolutely no other option, but to go.

I'm on the fence about you. We had a past and I'll always care for you, but do I really want to go back to how I felt before? It was always you. Literally. It's not a bad thing, but honestly, I don't know. I want to move on to other guys just as you did with other girls. You're pretty confusing. I remember what I told you before, before we stopped talking. I said that everytime I start talking to you, I start liking you again. Is it possible that it's beginning to happen?

& you. I really like how you're pretty darn smart! It's a turn-on : ) Just like Brian said, you have this "aura" that motivates me to work harder in school. ROFL Just kiddding, of courseee.

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So Phillip's birthday + his mailto:dinner@BJ tomorrow : ) Happy early!

hey, your wife wished you a happy birthday, too : )

Rants and rambles

There's only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe.
Well baby, I'm a put-on-a-show kinda girl
Don't like the backseat, gotta be first.
- Circus, by Britney Spears

Today was a really good day. hahah, I just felt so happy today! Even my HORRIBLE lab grade did not phase me. the first 3 periods went by so slow, but the last three went by like a breeze. So Brian christened me with the nickname : Cleavage Master 3000. yeah, thanks man! I appreciate it : (

How funny. I never thought that would you think the same. oth :')

I will never be a homewrecker. I respect you way too much. I'm sorry you feel that way towards me, though.. I don't know what to do because I don't think I did anything wrong?

A part of me still beLieves when you, say you're gonna stick around
A part of me still believes we can, find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try so let's just, say goodbye
I don't wanna dream about, all the things that never were
And maybe I can Live without, when I'm out from under
And I don't wanna feel the pain, what good would it do me now?
I'll get it all figured out, when I'm out from under. -BSpears.